So it's been a month since I last posted on here and I am pretty disappointed in myself! When I started this blog, I thought I would be inspired to write something at least once a week. I've been pre-occupied with so many other things that I almost forgot I started this blog, until a lot of random thoughts popped into my mind and I remembered this is the perfect place to record them!
It's crazy when I think about how many times I am so sure I know what's right for my life, but God has a way of showing me otherwise. Four years ago, (and I can't believe it's been that long!) I packed up all my stuff and moved 30 hours from home to a city I'd never been to. Who does that?! When I got to Tempe, Arizona, I only had fun for like a week. After a few months, I sold my bed, threw away a bunch of stuff, packed up the PrincessMobile and decided I was destined to be a Cali girl. I drove for six hours and moved to the state with more BMWs, plastic surgery and bad attitudes than I'd ever experienced in my life! After a month of not finding a job and making no friends, I figured that might be God's way of telling me superficial California wasn't everything I thought it was. The ocean is amazing and palm trees are my favorite, but those aren't exactly things that could make me stay there. So I spent around $250 to fed ex the only things worth keeping back to Michigan. I sold the PrincessMobile for $500 and begged my dad to buy me a one way plane ticket home. Some people might call it a complete failure, but hey, I learned a lot and actually had some fun! Because of that little adventure, I am fully aware that I am not the one who knows what's best for my life. So now I leave that up to God! :)
Something else I've been thinking about... It is not only exciting, but frightening not knowing what a new day may bring. For the past year, I have been living with someone who is full of more life, energy and laughter than anyone I have ever known. When she was diagnosed with stage 4 brain cancer a few months ago, I could not think of any reason why it had to be her. Why couldn't some miserable life-hating person be struck with this sickness?!! It's really not fair and I have been praying to understand why terrible things like this happen. Last week, I was having a conversation with my roomate and out of the blue, she told me that she thinks this happened to her to teach some people she knows to enjoy and appreciate their life more. I had never thought about it that way, but it made me realize that her cancer has already done just that to some certain people in her life. It amazes me how she has learned to accept the fact that she has a terminal illness. If something terrible ever happens in my life, I can only pray to be half as strong as she is.
So those are some random, mind-boggling thoughts I have been having lately. Hopefully I will be inspired to write again soon! :) xo
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