When it comes down to it, we all desire one thing- to love and to be loved. Everyone has those moments when they feel completely unappreciated, unrespected and unloved. I have been lucky enough to always have a constant support system of amazing people who have been with me through all the ups and downs of life. Unfortunately, not everyone has people like that in their life. Some have to independently have enough faith, energy and motivation without the ability to rely on others.
Sometimes I forget how much "my people" make a difference in my life. Now that I'm so far from home, it's been hard to adjust to all the changes.... and I'm not talking about the new apartment, new job, and warmer weather. I'm talking about the absence of all my favorite people back home. I have forgotten how much I appreciate being surrounded by some of the most hilarious and genuine people I've ever known. I love to make new friends, but no one can replace someone who has been by best friend since preschool or someone I've spent countless nights drinking cocktails with and acting like a complete idiot. Those are the people that make it hard to accept the fact that I really am eight hours away from the life I've known for so long.
I've never been the type to settle in one place for too long, but eventually I'm going to have to find comfort in the fact that no matter where I am, I'll always have certain people who make it all worth while. I personally think that being surrounded by just two amazing friends is better than having fifteen mediocre ones. That's why I know that even though some of my favorite people are far away, it really doesn't make a difference because I know I can always depend on them to be there for me. I find comfort in the fact that no matter where I live, I will always have that one small town to visit that I will forever call "home".
There's a great song by an artist named Sara Bareilles called "Many the Miles" and there's a lyric to this song that I love. It says "I do whatever I can wherever I end up/To keep giving my good love/And spreading it around, yeah/Cause I've had my fair share of take care and goodbyes/I've learned how to cry and I'm better for that." That is exactly how I like to live... no matter where I live or who I meet, I like to try and be the person who, no matter how many people have caused me tears, still has love to spread. It might sound cheesy, but the small amount of people who only stayed in my life for a short time obviously ended up there for some reason, even if it was just to help me learn how to deal with goodbyes. But the ones who will be in my life forever are the people who have always had love to share. I like to try and be that person to everyone I meet. You should, too :)
